Thursday, May 19, 2005
F-A-I-L-U-R-E.......this is the word that hit me so hard. big shock. put in more effort than usual, it might not be that great to you but it's an achievement to me to study more than usual, so if you have your own opinions bout my way is wrong and blablabla just screw off. so failed 6 darned subs and only passed 3. yea, never really thought that it would be this bad so now people around are like talking bout how well they did and they just don't realise that hey man there are other people (like me) who are fucking depressed about this and you go on rattling on what you scored well in. spare a thought please. and this just strucked me, i'm bottom in almost everything, darned failure. even that damned phyics bitch told me she might consider repeating me. what the shit ? repeat ? i'm that bad that i can even repeat. shit.! gone gone gone. and not like all the passes i get were like triple As or what. they were just mediocre. mediocre pieces of thrash. man, later i'll just get sacarstic remarks from dad and blablabla. what to do. 2 years of this, i'm immune to it. but i dunno why, people who don't study can get an A1. man. now i'm so damned depressed that ya. it's like maybe i'll have no future. no money. no family. no friends. hmm and probably dad will really have to send me to aussie to study where life there is abit more slower and relaxed where i can catch up. oh man. if i fail my Os i'm gone. man oh man. dead meat. i need deliverence.

3:10 PM